I do often wonder how much of what we call Deja Vu is actually a prophetic dream happening that we don’t remember we dreamt. That feeling of having experienced a moment in time already, of living it again. Maybe it was already lived in a way. Maybe it was dreamt.
Over the years I have had more than my handful of what I would call prophetic dreams. When something I had a dream about happens. Usually the day after the dream, and typically not mirroring eachother exactly. But the symbolism is there still, in an uncanny way. It’s been a long time since I experienced something like this but it happened again last night.
It was a simple dream. I’m on train tracks inside a tunnel. Approaching behind me is a train, and it’s on fire. I grab a hold of a ladder at the edge of the tunnel and feel the train pass by behind me. The next morning I’m reading a book called Underground by Will Hunt.
In the first chapter, the author describes himself in almost the exact scenario. Underground, on train tracks, in a tunnel. He crouches to the side and the train passes safely. He says, quote
“As I crouched there my whole body quaked, my mind on fire”
Instances like these are reminders for me. Even as someone who has had many experiences throughout my life, it can be easy to get swept up in the day to day. So many of us doubt ourselves and our experiences because the dominant culture is one that tends to dismiss such things. But I think now more than ever we need to remember that we are more than just physical bodies.
And because we are more than just the physical, we also have access to things beyond the physical. I believe dreams of this kind come to us as guideposts on our journey of life, maybe to let us know we are headed in the right direction, or that we are being guided in ways we don’t fully see.
Connection is among the many missing elements of our modern age. To be specific, a connection to something greater than ourselves. We all search for meaning and for connection. For belonging. Whether we realize it or not. Just like food and like water, we all require connection to…spirit, god, the divine. Just as we need connection to a deeper sense of self, and connection to a community. Something beyond us. We need a sense of that unnamable force that runs through us and all of life. It goes by different names, and we all have different experiences with it. It is the spiritual substrate of existence that animates all living things. It is essential for us. As much as we would like to cling to the material world and all of it’s comfort and measurable certainty, we are not truly whole without connection to something beyond the physical. Because it is from there that we are given meaning. We all come from somewhere else, somewhere other than Earth. And it is to that place that one day we must return. It gives us meaning beyond simply being a body. And in this we see a deeper purpose, that we came here for a reason. We aren’t just a conglomeration of random particles brought together by chance. Deep inside we know there is an intelligence And that None of this is random.
We need a birds eye view, as much as we need to see the immediacy of what is around us.
And so we seek. Some seek to fill a void, or to make sense of experiences had. We seek out greater vision to make our lives more than just a day after day repeat. And often, we don’t realize what it is we hunger for, deep inside. It’s a hunger that drives so many of us, but which so few of us understand. And it leads often down pathways of addiction, of trying to escape, seeking immediate pleasures in an attempt to fulfill a hunger that is more existential. It is a craving for meaning and connection. And we reach out for this, in a post-modern world where so much that surrounds us has been stripped of it’s soul. We don’t see that what we seek is inside of us. It’s in our relationship with nature and life itself.
We seek out answers to the mysteries of life. And perhaps it’s not the answer itself that satisfies, but the journey towards the answers we seek that give us meaning. It’s the bonds that we form along the way, and all of the different scenery we are given along the winding road of life. And even in our moments of pause, where we say “Right here, this is perfect. I can stay here a while”, there will come a time when the stir for adventure moves us further along. The pull of our our own spirit, and of an even greater spirit still.
We need a journey to travel and a story to live. Something that is real and full and colored in. When we have an experience that takes us out of the conditioned false normalcy, we are forever changed. Forever, we search for where there is soul. For where the deeper currents of life flows through. And it is in those places, with those people, with those creatures, in those states of being, that we are nourished. And that hunger, the need of the soul is satisfied. When we find the current, we must drink deep. To remind ourselves of who we are and where we come from. Nothing can better prepare us to face the world as it is.
The world that has been constructed which is designed to deaden and deafen the senses, the intuition and instinct. The world which has been slowly eroded away by greed and silent acquiescence. I will say that this is not the world to which we belong. For we belong to the one that hums with life, with ever-present intelligence. When I look outside of the window and see the tree branches dancing with the night wind. When I see the aurora borealis dance it’s way across the night sky, in a place I never imagined I would get to witness it. When I find myself around a fragrant fire, circled by familiar faces…
These are among the things that feed my soul. Things that help to keep it strong.
And it is in moments like these that I most palpably feel that invisible force, the spirit that runs through all things. Inside and around.
Sharing a sample of what is contained within Inseparable, a collection of poems on the axis of spirit and matter, which is now available in both Digital and Physical format (find it on the Poetry Collection page)
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